STORMS

Storms come and go, We are blessed even if we do not acknowledge it, for every storm is a Cleansing. The storms in our life and the storms of nature. If we only have eyes to see and the heart to understand one would see how beautiful and clean everything is after the cleansing of nature. Yes things sometimes get over turned yet if we really knew how important it is, nutrients being spread, leave...s cleaned, natures movement even the lightning balances the earth when it strikes the ground (scientific data shows this) the burned charcoal of a burned forest fire set by nature, has been prooven to purify the earth and then the forest so that the new grows stronger, the burnt wood now charcoal, cleansing.

When we have a personal storm in our life, when we have an emotional upheaval after a while when we look at our life we will see that that personal storm was a good thing, causing a change in our self in some way. Now if we are in awareness and see it with loving eyes we will see that we have been moved to a change that will benefit IF WE ALLOW... if we go back to old patterns that caused the upheavel, we will create another storm with simular lessons... if we learn and are grateful we walk away clean and ready for the next step of love, Rather than sitting in a broken home feeling like a victom, we see the damage and start moving to a positive change, either moving from the house / situation or re modeling... turning the damage into a true gift of joy rather than lamentation... CHOICES

Relationship

Love in Relationships

Unconditional Love

Forgiveness (Matthew 5:25)

Understanding

 Communication

Compromise

Growth

Awareness of each others qualities

Two have come together as One

Yet you are two,

One garden,

 One Essence Rose,

One Essence Carnation,

 Side by side,

 Loving the qualities of each other .

 Admiring and loving

Yet neither should want the other to change to be other than who they are,

 Each has its own uniqueness

that gives the color and fragrance to the garden,

 To be loved and nurtured in its own. 

Should the Rose try to change the Carnation to be a Rose,

 No

 The beauty and the awe,

is the difference and also the compromises  one makes in order to live in harmony .

 Be willing to change,

Change is the essence of life.

Everything changes and grows,

 So to grow and love and honor the growth of each other,

 Neither being jealous or controlling,

To manipulate the other to remain the same,

Never stunting growth,

Always honoring that which is good,

Always walking with God as the Crown in the relationship,

The Sun so shines it’s Love on everyone in the Garden

Each receiving it’s own share of Glory,

To it’s own growth and power

and so too

grows the love

ever increasing

its fragrance

blessing all

who

beholds its beauty.

 
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Lessons Judging a childhood

I  have been blessed these days to heal issues that were very  painful, to heal and see what each of my siblings have been carrying for years.  We each have a different story for we each experienced our pain differently.  Each had moments worse than the other, and some better.  WE did not talk to each other much as children nor as adults. 

 

Our life went separate ways and rarely meeting each other, and the pain of our childhood always the shadow not seen and always constant in our lives.  Keeping us away from each other.  Buttons would be pushed and off to our corner we fled.  Surviving the best we could.

 

We found each other again. And in our Joy of coming together I bought up a subject I was not aware would cause pain in my brother and sister.  And out from the shadows of our heart came all the pain and judgement.  Long forgotten memories and pains, too aweful for anyone even our selves to remember.  Here we were AGAIN LETTING THE PAST BRING PAIN TO THE NOW. 

 

We got through it, through it with LOVE, patience and facing the truth. However much was learned ...especially about Choices and how we hold onto pain of the past that hurt the NOW

The wisdom of my sister Linda, put our issue so beautifully ... the past is the past and we should not let IT desturb our NOW.

So now that we have seen felt and faced STUFF buried deep and forgotten or unknown ect. It is time to let go of that and live our new life in Love. We are adults now well over 40 :-D and it is time to live in our current time, to share our life NOW to walk with each other in Gratitude and Love. Sharing the hidden treasures that are our garden that we created from the compost pile of our past. Sharing the treasure that we have found and created from the treasures we DID find in our childhood... the gifts we got because of that experience.

My hun says all the time we create our own reality... and i say we did darn well with the seeds we carried in our pockets, with the yarn and material Linda found, with the tools and soil Steve found and me with my words and counsel and healings I have done, and I have been blessed to do emotional and physical healing (using the herbal knowledge or clues Grandma taught me and the gifts of Spirit God gave me) we have been blessed. And I see although each of us have had our share of pain, as adults we continued to learn and become better for it, and having a STRONG CONNECTION WITH GOD... AS IF GOD HAS HAD US IN HIS HANDS ALL ALONG... PROTECTING, LOVING , TEACHING....

NOW saying all that

i wish to say...

we were children ANY THING DONE IN THE PAST was done by children... IN PAIN ... do you know how children act up when they are in pain and in need... they get mean and they do things to get attention... they get mischievous, they get destructive...all crying out for LOVE ... acting out against who ever is there

We each have our shadows

We each acted up... I am grateful to know what i did.... for i have seen my report card of my life, that i started off one way and CHOSE ANOTHER... choosing Love instead of the self destructive anger and ways of my childhood

i left it all behind... we were children

do we judge a child forever ... and blame an adult for the child mis action

yes humanity does and it is sad how many people have been condemned because of an act as a child... I have learned a lot these days....and in my life I have held resentments and lost much quality time with family due to an action of our childhood.  What a waste of time and the gift of love lost ...however we have the NOW and the now is full of gifts once we let go of STUFF and embrace the gifts that life has to offer in Love

We were children and as teenager ...as well how many teens do you know make great decisisons... i appologize for leaving you behind Linda... I did not know you loved me or wanted to be with me... as you said we were separated by something that kept feeding us against each other...

No worries we cannot change the past...

We are here in the NOW and the now is all that matters

we are no longer children

our life

our choices

begin NOW

 

Loosing friendships and still loving

I had an issue and still do not understand how it happen. Meanwhile although I do not know nor understand how a friend could turn and walk away. I choose to Love no matter what.
I live my life so that I constantly check to see am I doing the best I can? Am I walking my talk? Am I choosing Love? And always I choose love. Even when I hurt I choose love. I may get angry. I may get hurt. And I get hurt often because well I am sensitive, a little too sensitive however I still choose to be me for I choose love.
So although I lost a dear friend I still love. Although I was hurt, I still love.
I lick my wounds and allow healing, then get up and play again.
so I am playing
I am rejoicing
I am Grateful for life and learning.
I am Grateful for even the pain for I have learned from it.
I am Grateful for having the time I had with this friend for we grew.
I know that life brings people in for a reason and sometimes it is for a long time. But for however long it is, let there always be love.
So much to be Grateful for.
And I move forward to the next moment of Love and Celebration
No regrets
Just Gratitude
Just Love

It's Been a Long Time

What a life!!! Roller coaster ride, ups and downs, fears, doubts, angers, happiness, sickness, wars, gossip... whoo all that stuff that can throw you off.

I have been on a roller coaster ride since coming back from California. Missing family balancing with my new life here in Australia, feeling out of place.

Then one day I woke up, feeling grateful, however with a different swing I had to wake myself up from my emotional sleep for I was numb with all the conflicting emotions that had poored around me, that had consumned me.

I looked outside and saw my beautiful lemon tree, and my meditation garden, looked at the blue sky with fluffy clouds, heard the birds cooing (those beautiful doves that keep making a nest in the flower baskets, they are so funny choosing designer nest in the baskets we have hanging with artificial flowers) watched birds in the bird bath on the pateo splashing as the other bird shook its feathers, all feeling thier special type of gratitude.

I watched and realized AGAIN how blessed I am, I have eyes to see all this beauty. I have ears to hear and a heart to feel. I am healthy and I live in a beautiful home in beautiful Queensland.

I woke up from my sleep that had me like a zombie or rather auto pilot where I was not feeling fully myself. When I woke up I realized I was not fully present in Love, I was existing.

Wow How could I just exist... I am living a magical life!!! Yet I started to see the lack, and as all of us do sometime, started the "what if " song, I started to see the missing rather than the gifts.

Waking up I decided to see all my pluses and be in gratitude in my every moment NOW. What a difference!!!

Being grateful for everything starting with the smallest wonder to the greatest.

So I broke the hypnosis of lack of feeling ... auto pilot... just existing... and I am NOW alive in the NOW and CELEBRATING MY EVERY MOMENT NOW!!!

I have learned from this event, I have taken responsibility for my thoughts that lead to the actions which lead to my negative feelings... I was not seeing with the eyes of love nor was I feeling ... I had allowed my being homesick to interfer with the discovery and the gift of my new home. I had blocked many gifts without realizing it.

I am very Grateful that I made the choice to wake up and take responsibility

I am Grateful for everything

And if I keep making choices to be in gratitude and love in all I do, I will never sleep walk again... this is what I choose.

Choosing Love while in Anger

So to all of you that think I walk in a cloud I have you to know that I am in constant choosing :-D
which means
Life brings with it many gifts which sometimes looks like curses, which are when the button is pushed without your expectations.
Myself I had some recent events that sent me in to days, I mean days of anger.
I could not shake it.
I looked at it, analized it, did all the right things that I knew to do, but could not shake it, it was like I stepped in a bear trap and it was latched and I did not know how to get out of it.
So in my process and knowing I lived on the principal of my understanding of love, that this is definitely not the way to be... to be in the moment of love is where I am to be...not in the moment of anger!!! No Way.
So without knowing how to shake it, i surrendered to it, and meditated on Love, breathing Love in and breathing Love out nothing more.
While washing dishes and being aware of my thoughts, yes being aware is very important, I saw where my thoughts were taking me and that was rambling into more anger, each point going to the next. What I did at this awareness realizing that I really needed help in this, I really just said I LET GO OF THIS, AND I LET GOD, I CHOOSE TO BE WHO I AM, I CHOOSE TO BE LOVE, TO ACT IN LOVE TO BE LOVE TOWARDS EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING, ESPECIALLY TO MYSELF, I CANNOT BE LOVE IF I AM CARRYING ANGER, ANGER IS THE DESTROYER, I WILL NOT ALLOW THAT TO BE IN MY BODY OR LIFE... SO I LET GO AND LET GOD HELP ME TO BE ME, I CHOOSE ME, I CHOOSE LOVE... took a deep breath and started acting ...yes for just releasing did give me the power to act/be in Love... AND i felt love coming into me, it was wonderful
and as the day went on and my husband came home, and he was the primary focus of my anger, when the anger tried to show its face to me again, i took a deep breath, and chose loving action, saying i will not allow this anger to destroy me... and the simple act of choosing love, really lightened me up, soon i forgot what it was I was angry over.
Later, because I had let go of it, I actually was able to see what it was I really was angry about, and also talk about it, in a loving way, to my husband. It was wonderful truly wonderful the FREEING experience and the feeling all over my body of the release of this Anger, and the Joy and happiness that filled me and our relationship because of LETTING GO, AND CHOOSING LOVE.

SHARING A HEALING AND MAGIC

I was blessed yesterday with the most wonderful magical day.

It was our Sunday. We went to Victoria Point to do some shopping. I passed this wonderful store, I love international stores with all its beauty. I left Des outside the store just to go inside and check on the Large pillow that caught my eye. (Bait) once I entered I heard this wonderful French music and began to sway with it, yes i am known to literally dance around a store, this is true ask my kids :-D

Well as I listened to the music, my eye caught a woman doing as I was Glowing and moving to the music.

I told her Ah Paris!!! and told her looks like you are getting ready to travel, she then told me that she was going when her grandchildren grew up, I asked her where she wanted to travel, she then said a few places that i did not feel her heart they were just places, then i said whats wrong with traveling now, letting someone love your grandchildren and you go enjoy yourself, she SMILED AND SAID YOU JUST GAVE ME GOOSE BUMPS... i smiled because that is not unusual for me this response, i usually have a gift to give someone, and i knew her goose bumps were her confirmation that this was the right guidance and her eyes lit up, SHE KNEW IT

then I told her i guess you are ready for Paris and she LIT UP LIKE A BULB AND SAID YES I AM... and then she told me as she went... that she felt her heart get real warm and spread all over ... she said this with a great smile.

We laughed a while longer and I left her even more joyful than when I came preparing to take a wonderful well deserved trip to PARIS!!!! not waiting for the original plan of 6 years when her grandchild was old enough for her to leave.

We left the mall to go visit our 88 year old friend, Rudy a real heart someone who has experienced so much in his life and shares it and keeps on giving. I mean he has written 5 book, and translated 3 books as far as I know, From German to English.

We met him about a month ago and he has been a real blessing to Des and myself.

For Des because his father died, WOW, come to think of it, a year ago of the day we met Rudy. Rudy actually has a parallel life to Des's father, both were young men when Hitler was in power, both from Saxon (near what was East Berlin), Des always wanted to ask his father what it was like but his father never talked about it, Rudy not only talked about it, he wrote books on it.

This man is so spiritual and being born during an age and in a country that went to war with a mad man in power. He shares all his stories of what it was like being a young man in the trenches of the Russian Front, then being captured and being in Russia for 20 years in prison.

Well we have experienced nothing but love from this man, and he has no family so we have loved loving him. SO ALERT, SO KNOWLEDGABLE ...

This visit i kept noticing his feet and legs swollen and purple on some parts, my inner guidance told me to do a healing on him, I asked him permission and was blessed to sit and heal him, watching his feet go from purple to pink from cold to warm, watching the swelling go to half, and hearing him say he could feel the healing energy flowing through him,

He told me that his feet had been swollen since the war, he was so happy and so were we.

Des joined in on the healing and he worked on his heart area, it was wonderful the 3 of us all there in love and you could feel the angels, it was wonderful.

I was happy that we had this gifted to us, that we were gifted with healing him and gifted with meeting the lady in the store, I literally felt and experienced what it feels like
TO BE IN THE PURE MOMENT OF LOVE
we were being
and in that being we were WALKING LOVE BEING INSTRUMENTS OF LOVE...
I AM GRATEFUL
speaking of Choices... i could have chosen not to listen to that small voice that guided me to do the healing, i could have not listen to my heart and love unconditional when we first met, i could have chosen to judge him because of the past...no i saw him and loved who he is right now, and I knew and felt the presence of LOVE as we worked with him...
CHOICES TO LOVE
YES